When you find yourself triggered. When your emotional world
is on fire and you are hooked into shame, blame, and rage. When you notice you
are practicing self-aggression, spiraling into addictive behavior, or
complaining about your life, blaming others, and erupting with resentment… slow
down. The messengers have arrived.
Do not dissociate and split from them, meditate them away,
or transform them into a higher vibration. The invitation is one of intimacy, a
curious journey toward the feelings, and opening into the vision that is
longing to emerge from their center. Return into the aliveness of your body and
listen. For your need yourself now more than ever.
Something is attempting to break through, out of the murky
darkness and into conscious awareness. Some unmet emotion, some abandoned
aspect of yourself, some underlying state of vulnerability that was not able to
return safely at an earlier time.
What is it? What is knocking on the door of your heart and
longing for reorganization? What lost part of you is shape-shifting out of the
unseen and up from of the muddy soil of your body, so that it may share its
wisdom in a world that has forgotten? Is there something you’ve been neglecting
about what is most important to you? Some discrepancy between the life you know
is possible and the one you’ve been living?
In the past, it was intelligent to split off from
overwhelming experience that you could not metabolize at the time. But these
pieces are looking for you. They come as emissaries of revelation and carriers
of light in the darkness. As ambassadors of the somatic world, they serve as
gatekeepers of portals into aliveness, connection, and wholeness. Though it may
appear otherwise, they do not come to overwhelm you, or to engulf, or to take
you down. But to show you life. To reveal a key to a sacred door.
Whether you choose to provide a home for these ones – or
you do not – they will never relinquish their search, and will continue to
appear as your friends, your children, your emotions, your lovers, and your life
circumstances. Look carefully and you will see them. They will even come in
disguise as the mountains, the ocean, the blue, and the purple, to remind you
of something astonishing about who you are, that you may have forgotten along
the way.
Please consider the possibility, though, that the
“forgetting” is equally as sacred as the “remembering” and that love will use
both of these energies to find you and to awaken you to what you are. Each are
special arrows in the quiver of the beloved, who will never, ever give up and
will look for you forever.
Art by Ern Mainka
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