The surging of hope and hopelessness, joy and flatness,
anxiety and rest. The shakiness and uncertainty in your belly. The tightness in
your throat. The raw breaking inside your heart.
The sense that a miracle is here, just beyond the veil, but
how to reach it? How to fully show up and participate here, and be fully alive?
What is truly being asked of you?
All the techniques, the teachings, the things to manifest,
the new beliefs to take on, the worn-out ideas about who you are and why
you’ve come here, about where the true source of meaning and peace will come.
The questions that once had answers… only a tenderness remains, with no sign of
resolution. Only a burning where the questions once existed.
An old vision seems to be dissolving, but what will it be
replaced with? There is no life without the willingness to fully participate in
the shattering and the death of an ancient dream. No life without embodiment to
the vulnerability as it surges in its eternal forms within you. Perhaps it was
never resolution you were after, but pure surging life.
As we open our hearts on this new day, in awe at the gift
that has been given… as we gaze up into the lunar holding, into the mountains,
the muddy earth, into the eyes of those around us… today was never going to be
the day when we figured it out, got all our questions answered, or resolved the
unprecedented activity of love. It is just too creative for all that. What you
are is too wild for that.
Today may not be the day for answers, but to let your heart
break open to the vastness of the question. To fall to the ground as a humble
lover of the mystery.
The heartbreak found here is not a mistake or error that
needs to be corrected. It does not need to be shifted into something else, for
it is pure and complete on its own. It is not a project that needs to be
solved, but a portal to step through at the threshold of the sacred world.
This longing, this burning, this uncertainty… these are
your only scriptures now.
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