It’s okay to be shaky, to not know anymore, and to allow
your heart to break. To fall to the ground and bear witness to the reality that
life was never going to turn out the way you thought it would. It’s just too
wild, too creative, and too devastatingly magic for all that.
Rather than spin from the death as if it were a defeat,
with your breath as your guide, travel inside. There are jewels hidden there,
filled with meaning, with pure feeling, and with relentless outrageousness of
love as it erupts into the world of time and space.
You will never find your life’s purpose by way of a
frantic, urgent, exhausting search. Your life’s purpose is to live. Fully. To
participate, to take a risk, to slow down and see the signs, to commune with
the colors, the songs of the birds, and to listen to the intelligence of the
stars.
The forms that love take are by nature arising and
dissolving in each moment, for this is the way of form. But love itself is that
which never comes and goes. You never know what form love will choose to take
in the future, for there is no love in the future. Love is only now. You will
never be able to resolve or pin down the movement of love as it is infinitely
creative and at all times unfolding into greater wholeness.
If you become too fused with a specific form you believe
you need love to take, your heart will inevitably break when love obliterates
that form for something new, which it always will. This shattering is the great
gift of form. This dissolving and reorganization is a special kind of grace
that the mind cannot know. But the heart knows. The body knows.
Before you seek to “heal” your heartbreak via spiritual
process, turn to your heart and ask if it truly wishes to be mended. For this breaking
is sacred, sent here so that new forms may emerge.
Be grateful for the forms of love while they appear, but
allow them their own journey of death and rebirth. Seek refuge not in love’s
forms, but in the field of love itself, that which never comes and goes. For
this is what you are.
Today may not be the day where answers will come, but to
let your heart break open to the vastness of the question.
