Sometimes we pretend there really is something more than love that matters. We look up into the starry sky and are just not sure about it all. We know that somehow it must be possible for life to give us more: more connection, more grace, more awakening, more intimacy, more healing, more joy, more lovers. We wonder if we’ve done something wrong: perhaps we’ve not prayed hard enough, or in the right way; meditated enough; healed enough; hurt enough; opened ourselves enough; forgave enough; let things go enough, accepted enough, surrendered enough.
And then in the next moment, somehow something is different. The veil parts and for one microsecond we see what love is doing. We’re given this much grace, to see for just one moment. The curtain is pulled back and we are shown. Despite the problems, the pain, the confusion, and the burden of becoming, our breath is taken and our hearts dissolve into the realization that there is no healing and no awakening coming in the future. The wholeness we long for is only now.
For just a brief moment, we see into the whole display. It is illuminated from within by a light crafted of an unknown source. What it reveals is the always, already raging perfection of this most sacred and rare human experience. Everyone we meet, every kind word that we speak, every time we touch another with our hands and with our hearts, each time we are called to be the space for another to remember the raging truth of what they are—somehow it has all been set up and orchestrated by love itself.
We are overwhelmed by such intelligence, by this sort of cosmic creativity. And we know that in any moment that could ever be—whether joyful or sad or content or blissful or vulnerable or scared or confused or anxious or depressed or overflowing with gratitude—we could never find any separation between ourselves and love, between ourselves and life.
And then we look back up into that same sky… though something seems a little different. It’s more vivid, the display more magical, we can hear the hum of the sacred world churning out the stars and each and every cell of each and every human heart. We behold Venus, the moon, the other stars, the comets, this precious milky way that we call our home… with nothing left other than an unwavering faith in love’s perfection.
My most recent book – The Path Is Everywhere: Uncovering the Jewels Hidden Within You – is now available
The next book, A Healing Space: Befriending Yourself in Difficult Times, will be published by Sounds True
The next event is The Healing Shame Retreat: Spiritual Awakening and Transforming the Core Wound of Unworthiness, April 24-29, 2019 at Sunrise Ranch in Loveland, Colorado, with co-facilitator Jeff Foster