Friday, October 30, 2015

A portal into intimacy with all things

The invitation is now before you: to make a commitment to no longer pathologize the wrathful appearance of sadness, anxiety, grief, and confusion. Instead, to validate the right of these very vivid energies to surge in the body, staying close with them and listening carefully to what they have to say.

And to no longer remove your love, your attunement, and your presence simply because another's experience does not conform to personal and collective fantasies of happiness and light. To stay fully embodied to your vulnerability in all its forms - not as a mistake to be corrected or evidence that something has gone wrong - but as the direct portal into intimacy with all things.

Whatever arises, may it be received outside the ancient organization of aggression, shame, and blame. For yours is a path of radical kindness, fierce compassion, and slowing way down. Together with those around you, may you rewire the old grooves of fight-flight-freeze, lighting up your miracle nervous system with new pathways of love.

As you provide sanctuary for your own unmetabolized sadness, hopelessness, and disappointment, you remove the burden from others to take care of your unlived life for you. For it is within the crucible of safe passage for the unmetabolized within that you will truly be able to love another.

Art credit: Atomic Pumpkin Patch by Kyle Young

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Intimacy as the most immediate path

When we commit to intimacy as path, part of the agreement is that we will inevitably feel feelings that we would ordinarily be able to avoid. We are so resourceful and can almost always find a way to elude the raw, naked disrobing of the beloved and his or her ways. Rather than shame ourselves for this, perhaps we could honor the infinitely creative and intelligent aspects of the psyche to protect us from the wholesale unraveling of the world as we have known it.

In the fiery crucible of intimacy, there are no longer any secret trap doors in the back of the room through which we can exit. There is always a slight rawness inside, an unbearable sense of aliveness, knowing that at any moment just one glance from the beloved, in whatever form she chooses to take, could trigger a tidal wave of feelings and surging vulnerabilities. While it may be tempting to view this eruption as evidence that something has gone wrong and that we have failed, we could rewrite this timeworn narrative and replace it with something much vaster.

It is so tempting to blame the avalanche of the emotional world on the ‘other,’ and in subtle ways place the burden of our unlived lives upon them. But the other is just being himself. He is not doing anything ‘to’ us, but serving as the alchemical gatekeeper of the unmetabolized guests of the somatic landscape. What a painful situation. What a miracle of outrageous grace.

Perhaps intimacy may always be the most difficult and the most immediate path, requiring everything we have to navigate. In ways beyond the confines of the known, it may always demand a raging willingness to be exposed, to take the risk of allowing another to deeply matter to us, and to fall apart and come back together in the wide open, groundless, shimmering reality of love.

From one perspective, this path offers nothing… but in this ‘nothing’ everything is revealed.

Photographer unknown

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

As you wander under the moon...

As you wander under the holding of the moon, stay embodied to the vulnerability as it washes through you. Receive the transmission of lunar essence as it emerges from inside her.

In one moment of pure astonishment, behold the colors, the sounds, and the somatic spinning of light that have arrived as her emissaries, come to remind you of something the world has forgotten.

As you receive her into the coming days, do whatever you can to help others. Hold them and offer them the gift of your kindness and your presence. Show them how much you love them and how much you care about how they are making meaning of their life as a sensitive, alone, and connected human being.

Look carefully at the one you love for in the not-so-distant future they will no longer be here. You may not be able to touch and to hold them tomorrow.

As the veil is parted and the secret moon inside your heart appears, you will remember how precious it truly is here. And what a rare opportunity you have been given to break open in a star of love.

Photo by Marc Lester, AP /Anchorage Daily News

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Your confusion is not pathology, it is path

Your confusion is not pathology, it is path. It has something to show you that clarity could never reveal. The nature of chaos is wisdom, but you must provide a home for it to receive its mysteries.

Your feeling of disconnection is not neurotic, it is intelligent. It has something to show you that oneness could never reveal. If you will allow it to unfold and illuminate – resisting the temptation to convert it via spiritual process – it will reveal the remaining veil.

Your loneliness, your fear, and your anxiety are not mistakes. They are not obstacles on your path. They *are* the path. The freedom you are longing for will never be found in the eradication of the unwanted, but only in the information it carries.

There are surges of somatic activity that contain very important information for your journey. If you will offer safe passage for the unknown aliveness, you will meet the messengers of illumination. Nothing is missing, nothing is out of place, and nothing need be sent away.

Yes, you may burn until you are translucent, but it is by way of this burning that wholeness will be revealed.

Art by Lyse Marion

Monday, October 26, 2015

Healing is not a process which you need to 'complete'

Healing is not a process which you need to ‘complete.’ There is no practice you can undertake to discover what you already are, and life is not waiting for you to awaken or to transform.

Please do not postpone the freedom you are longing for, until you are ‘healed,’ have ‘resolved’ your past, created some dream reality of the seeking mind, or are experiencing only those states of consciousness you have deemed correct, ‘spiritual,’ and evidence that you are okay. Dare to see that what you are is beyond okay and not subject to the trance of the conceptual.

Take a risk, slow down and see that love will never organize itself around your preferences. For it is a firestorm of creativity, inviting you at all times into greater levels of wholeness and cohesion. But this environment is wild and unprecedented and will never conform to your hopes and fears.

What you are is a miracle. Your experience is sacred and holy. Your senses and your body are outrageous and alive, and filled with intelligence and originality. Even your confusion is filled with wisdom. Even your darkness is weaved of particles of light.

Just take one moment and see.