Friday, September 30, 2016

Into the realm of pure aliveness

Underneath the unfolding narrative, just beyond the rich, compelling storyline – even below the colorful emotional landscape – there exists a rich, mysterious world of sensations: a somatically-organized field of intelligence, creativity, and aliveness.

It is dizzying here, awash with particles of the unknown. Something is pulling you, but it can be disorienting to a mind longing for resolution. The urge to return to the known, to get a hold of “your life,” and to renew the dream of control can appear as overwhelm in the nervous system.

Without pathologizing the movement back to ground, allow the mind the rest, even for just a moment. Dare to consider that nothing has gone wrong, nothing need urgently be resolved, and that no answers are coming… for now.

You are in the non-ordinary world of presence – strangely familiar, but dreamlike and excruciatingly fresh. The mind will continue its search for what is wrong, but here there are no “problems,” no complaints, no shame, no blame, and no spell of unworthiness.
There is nothing to be fixed, cured, transformed, or shifted. There is no “spirituality” here, nor any movement to replace one experience with another. Just pure aliveness.

Descending into the body, into the unknown, into the wide-open unprecedented realm of the here and now is exhilarating, yet there may always be some fear, anxiety, and trepidation about it all. These surging feelings are not evidence that something has gone wrong, but only of how open it truly is here.

Within the wisdom field of what you are, there is no longer any “transformation” or “healing” as you have come to think of these terms. Nothing is “unhealed” or in need of transformation. Just raw, naked, experience, free from interpretation. Tender, open, and warm. Rippling with intelligence.

What you are is the erupting union of inner and outer space. Your body is an invitation, an entryway and threshold into the activity of this union. Out of the shimmering, pregnant, aliveness of pure awareness flow the qualities of compassion, attunement, and presence.

Please don’t forget what you are.

Photo by Robert Maschke

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Intimacy with the unwanted

We want to share our joy, our happiness, and our peaceful clarity with others. It is so natural to want to uplift those we care about.

But perhaps the greatest gift we can give to another is the willingness to provide a home for the unwanted and abandoned within us.

When we offer sanctuary for our own unmet grief, loneliness, hopelessness, and confusion, a permission field arises in the space between. By removing the burden from the other to metabolize your emotional world for you, you are finally able see them as they are, an unprecedented expression of creativity and love.

As you stay attuned and intimate with what arises in your immediate experience, you discover that what whatever appears does so longing for just one moment of your compassionate, holding presence. It is this one moment that is a revolution, cutting into billions of moments where you have turned from the raging fire of what you are.

And in this discovery you realize that the erupting emotional world was never an obstacle to your path, but only the colorful, spacious, and vibrant path itself… inviting you into aliveness, calling you home again. For you now see that it is only in the abandonment of present experience that suffering can take root in this world.

In the space of this clear seeing, love is revealed to be taking form at all times as an alchemical holding crucible, in which two hearts unfold together – neither separate nor one – but as an expression of unknown, untamable, unresolvable creativity. It is out of this embodied wholeness that all healing emerges.