Sunday, May 31, 2015
Deflation, hopelessness, and vulnerable, penetrating tenderness – these are special light-arrows in the quiver of the beloved, which he or she will use at any time in order to awaken the activity of love within you.
Stay close, for this activity is pure blessing.
Before you turn from these sacred allies of the dark, practice wild intimacy with the envoys of love, and allow them to dissolve the conceptual world.
When all of your clothing is removed, your translucent nature is revealed. When the known is crumbled away by the beloved and her naked embrace, all that remains is your burning heart. There is nothing more alive than that. There is nothing more sacred than that.
Falling apart, holding it all together. Then falling apart, then holding it all together again. Cycles of integration and disintegration. Chaos and cohesion. Stillness and rest.
In ways the mind may never resolve, love is pouring through you, washing away everything that is less than whole, preparing you for what is next. But what is next is always of the unknown and will never be understood ahead of time by means of the conceptual.
Look carefully and see that you can never truly 'fall apart,' because you were never 'together' to begin with. You are the vast space in which 'together' and 'apart' dance in union in the world of time and space. Rest your achy nervous system and honor what is moving within you. Please don't forget what you are.
If you remain too identified with the falling apart, you cut into the naturally-existing aliveness that is here, now. You lose contact with the radiance within you, and you become misattuned to the unfolding of somatic experience, which is the movement of pure, luminous wisdom. You lose touch with the intelligence and the creativity of embodied presence, and with the direct realization that nothing has ever been wrong with you. You forget that the darkness, when provided sanctuary, is brighter than a thousand suns inside you.
But if you remain too identified with holding it all together, you disconnect from your vulnerability and the spontaneous activity of the beloved within you, and disconnect from the wild reality that your heart could break at any moment. You forget that it is through this brokenness that your gifts unfold into this world, and how each and every crack in your heart is an illumined portal through which the poetry of your life will flow. You lose contact with why you are here – as a vessel of love for the benefit of beings everywhere.
Right in the middle of falling apart and holding it together is the secret place. Stay there. For it is there where the light and the dark are in union, where integration and disintegration emerge as one in love, and where lunar and solar weave together the particles of the sacred world.
Photo by Alexander Khokhlov and Valeriya Kutsan
Saturday, May 30, 2015
One of the most surging, alive invitations on the path of love is to explore the ways that you engage and catalyze drama and conflict in your relationships with others. If you look carefully, with curiosity and kindness, you may discover how the drama is serving a distractive function, designed to keep you out of very vulnerable states of being.
But the sore, tender places - as they unfold as pathways of somatic intelligence - are now opening in your body, unlocking inside your heart, and calling you into the center, where the beloved is awaiting your loving presence.
For many I speak with, there is such a natural longing for a life of aliveness, of connection, of ripening intimacy with all things. But this aliveness is not possible without traveling through the portal of vulnerability. For vulnerability and aliveness are one.
One of the greatest acts kindness - for yourself and for others - is to explore the very specific ways that you exit vulnerability - through your core beliefs, through splitting off from intense feelings and sensations, and through behavior designed so that you... never... have... to... get... too... close. Even your most precious spiritual beliefs and practices can be used as passageways of somatic dissociation.
As you begin to discover the ways you are re-enacting old strategies of distancing and protection, it is important you do not shame yourself or conclude that you have failed, that something is wrong with you, or that something must urgently be 'fixed.' For this is the path of love. You can honor the old strategies which have protected you up until now, from the open, unknown, and groundless mandala of love. Until now, it has been kind to cut into that much nakedness, that much tenderness, and that much creativity.
But something new is calling. The beloved, in all of his or her forms, is now inviting you into the vastness. You can hear the invitation, as it spins out of the stars and up out of the gooey, muddy earth. Slow way down.
Everything is okay, exactly as it is. The path is everywhere. Stay close. Rest. Lay your hands on your heart. Infuse your entire being with loving kindness. Everything... is... okay. You are okay, exactly as you are... right here. Right now.
Art by Lyse Marion
Friday, May 29, 2015
In each radiant here and now moment, you come one step closer to dissolution, to leaving this miracle world behind so that you may return to the unknown. While many are convinced another opportunity will be given, it is possible that you will never again be able to behold the violet as it emerges in the core of the sun as it sets, parting a veil to the very rare dimension of love that is here now.
It is possible today will be your last – your last chance to commune with the blooming eruption of the lilies, to enter inside the secrets of the unseen colors, and to seed the beating heart of another with your compassion, your care, and the gift of your aliveness. Or to taste the cooling water as it mingles with your tongue, to receive the transmission of birdsong as it comes alive inside you, or to enter into union with the beloved as she takes form as your precious lover.
Please do what you can on this day to behold what is truly happening here, to merge with the sounds of love as they unfold into your sacred nervous system, and to offer the gift of presence to those around you. Today is the only day you will ever be able to speak kindness to another, to hold them tenderly, to practice intimacy with the sensual world, and to attune to the particles of light that are the signature of this realm.
While at first glance it may appear today is just another ordinary Friday, there is nothing ordinary about being alive in a star of love. For there are billions of beings in billions of stars who will never have the opportunity that you have right now.
Photo by Joel Nisleit
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
You will never find more love, for love is what you are. It is not waiting around the corner in some dreamed up future or coming as the result of a weary, worn out search. It will never be found in another, though another may remind you of its luminous reality within you.
Love is the very substance of your nervous system, organs, and cells, and forming as the material of the synapses firing in your miracle brain. It is what allows you to enter into intimacy with the spring rain, to meet the longing of the birds at dawn, and for your heart to break open at how precious it truly is here.
Before you rush to mend your broken heart, ask first if it wishes to be mended. And listen carefully to what is revealed.