Saturday, February 27, 2016
A wanderer of love
At times, you may become aware of a subtle burning deep within you: as you wake in the morning, move through the day, and rest into the night. As you speak with others, open to them, and stay close with the surging emotional world.
This movement can appear as an actual sensation in the body or more energetically as the activity of reorganization within your nervous system. Something is calling, drawing you close, but it is far too vast and creative to approach by way of the known. You are alive, but this aliveness offers no ground and no solidity from which to take the next step. It does not bring answers, but only reminds you of the vastness of the question.
For some, this experience is associated with profound melancholy, for others an actual ache in the heart, and for others feelings of hopelessness, despair, joy, or bliss. You are being called back home, but it is not the home of what has come before. It is into your homeless nature, as a wanderer and as an explorer of love.
For those who are attuned to this movement, it can appear as an actual substance, a type of nectar come to seed new pathways, dissolving what you thought you knew about yourself, this world, intimacy, ‘spirituality,’ and why you’re here. This substance is a primordial drop of integration, symbolizing the end of one world so that another can begin.
As you learn to stay embodied, present, and kind to the fires of love, you may come to see the burning as a sacred friend, though at times a very wrathful one – an old unmet part of you, not come to harm but to reveal something about wholeness.
The burning is not an obstacle on your path, but is the very path itself. As you surround it with your warmth and holding, it will purify your heart and your connection with beings everywhere, so that you can be here fully, and help others in unknowable, infinite ways.