Tuesday, December 29, 2015
Trust in the fires of disintegration
There was an idea that as you awakened you would feel less. But you are seeing that love continues to ask you to feel more. You hoped that as your heart opened, your vulnerability would diminish, but you are more raw now than you’ve ever been.
As the veil parts around you and your vision becomes clearer, you wondered if you would be more detached, not care quite so much, and rest as the “witness” beyond it all. But, alas, everything matters so much in the world of love that you are burning up within.
Something new is being born inside you, but something else is dying. The invitation before you is to stay present to the uncertainty, the chaos, and the groundless reorganization. While it may be terrifying and disorienting to the density of the mind, the creativity of the sensual world is overwhelming and outrageous. Trust in the fires of disintegration.
While you have been longing for this level of openness, it will often be accompanied by a certain fragrance of sadness. But this is not the sadness of the mind, where something is perceived to be missing. It is the sadness of pure love, pouring out of your exposed heart.
You are willing to give your heart to others and to this world, for you are seeing that this is why you have come here.