Tuesday, January 13, 2015
Enter inside your fear
Rather than going to war with fear – and deeming it a mistake or problem that you must eliminate, transform, or 'heal' – the invitation is to enter into relationship with it. Fear has been wired into your nervous system for millions of years and is unlikely to be undone in a few decades through spiritual process. You can rest in the strong likelihood that fear may arise most every day for the rest of your life, in some form or another. Welcome. You are alive.
Look very carefully inside your present, embodied experience. Is fear a problem? Is the surging of sensation, feeling, and intensity within you something you must continue to argue with, to shame, and to subject to fundamental aggression? Must you continue to tell stories about how it is 'in opposition' to love and that as soon as you are no longer scared, then you will fully participate in life, in intimacy, in relationship? Open to the movement of fear as it illuminates all that is less than whole, a wrathful purifying messenger of the unseen.
Is it actually the mere appearance of fear that is the cause of your struggle and suffering? Or is it the abandonment and rejection of it? Along with the unexamined conclusions that its mere presence is convincing evidence of a horrible mistake, a problem of survival-level importance that you must urgently 'solve,' and a clear sign that you have 'failed,' this time as a 'spiritual' person? Yes, fear may be a fierce and burning companion, but it is not an enemy that has come from the outside. It is a lost part of you that is requesting your attention, arising in the radiant here and now to show you something, to unlock a pathway within you.
With practice, it is possible to enter inside your fear, and to infuse it with your presence, with your tenderness, your curiosity, and your heart. Get close enough so that you can be intimate with its movement, but not so close that you fuse and identify with it. And see, finally, that fear is not an adversary, but an ally, arising into conscious awareness to be integrated into the wild splendor that you are.
You can call off the war and put down your weapons of dissociation, aggressiveness, and abandonment of what is. Reality will appear at times as fear, for even fear is a tool of skillful means in the arsenal of the beloved as he or she comes alive in your body. Slow down. Say yes to what is and it will liberate in front of your eyes. There is no enemy here. There is nothing working against you. Only further revelation. The path is everywhere.
Art by Andycap – "Feeling Free"