Thursday, December 4, 2014
In the middle is the secret place
Falling apart, holding it all together. Then falling apart, then holding all together again. Cycles of integration and disintegration. Chaos and cohesion. Stillness and rest. As with the ocean, the stars, the sun, and the moon, love is pouring through you, washing away everything that is less than whole, preparing you for what is next. But what is next is always of the unknown and never understood ahead of time by means of the conceptual.
Look carefully and see that you can never truly 'fall apart,' because you were never 'together' to begin with. You are the vast space in which 'together' and 'apart' dance in union in the world of time and space. Please don't forget what you are.
If you remain too identified with the falling apart, you disintegrate; you lose contact with the radiance within you, and you become misattuned to the unfolding of your somatic experience, which is the movement of pure, luminous wisdom. You forget how intelligent and how creative it is inside you, and that you are never, ever in need of fixing. You forget that the darkness, when provided sanctuary, is brighter than a thousand suns inside you.
But if you remain too identified with holding it all together, you disconnect from your vulnerability, you turn from the wild reality that your heart could break at any moment. You forget that it is through your brokenness that your gifts pour into this world. You forget that each and every crack in your heart is an illumined portal through which the poetry of your life will flow.
Right in the middle of falling apart and holding it together is the secret place. Stay there. For it is there where the light and the dark are in union, where integration and disintegration emerge as one in love, and where lunar and solar weave together the particles of the sacred world.
Art by Charlie Cho