For all of us, there are times when that energetic quality we call 'anger' explodes throughout our bodies, our minds, and our hearts—often uninvited—and can be so destructive. As with other difficult emotions, there are two primary ways that we respond: on the one hand, we either repress the feeling, cover it up through addictive activity, or otherwise act as if it isn't there. We can even use spiritual practice to this end. Or, we act the emotion out, seeking to discharge the very disturbing energy and to remove it as quickly as we can from present experience. But if we look carefully we can see that, while it may appear that 'getting really angry' is a way to be in direct relationship with our anger, we can start to see that it is not; rather, we are spinning 'around' our anger and actually abandoning it. We are practicing the ancient art of self-aggression toward our lived experience and this so painful, for ourselves and others.
When we can somehow find a way to turn directly into our emotions and into our feelings, a tremendous freedom is often waiting for us. When we can stay at the sensation level of our experience, we may become bewildered as we are no longer able to find a 'problem' there. Our feelings and emotions are not what we think they are. They are not nearly as solid, continuous, and enduring as they appear. Like all form, they are made of light and, ultimately, of the particles of love themselves. They are our long-lost friends, our ancient heart-companions, emissaries of the beloved one herself, just waiting for us to take a moment out of our busy lives to touch them. Once they are seen, heard, validated, and held, they are then free to share their gifts with us, and to serve the purpose for which they came: to be radical vehicles for our own freedom, and luminous pathways through which love can dance in the playground of this very special world.