Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Revealing the transmission of the luminous blue wholeness

You’ve tried so hard, prayed so much, meditated, gone on retreats, followed your breath, practiced yoga, stayed in the now, touched the Self in endless satsangs, affirmed, forgiven, and let go. You’ve even called off the search, come back, and then called it off again. You’ve been through so much. But you are quite sure nothing is changing, nothing is shifting. You’re tired. And want to rest.

Somehow, you were told that opening your heart would feel good, that transformation would feel safe, and that awakening would drown the raging fire within. As if all confusion would be removed, allowing you to feel much less, not more. You had thought hopelessness would turn to hope in a permanent way, that longing would resolve forever into calm, and that the unknown would yield to the known and to the certain.

But you are seeing that this is not the beloved’s world.

She is planting seeds of burning inside your heart that are starting to bear fruit within you. But it is a fruit from beyond this world. It is a fruit that you have no reference point for. She will use whatever feeling, emotion, thought, and sensation that she must to reach you, to reveal to you her transmission of the luminous blue wholeness. She is using the energies of light and dark, broken and whole, and separation and union to end one world and to start another.