Friday, December 13, 2013

Behold the golden blue pathways home

Though it can be so hard to hold sometimes, you are seeing that love has not come to provide resolution to your burning, but to show you how alive you really are. 

Though at times you feel weary on the journey, you are witnessing the unfolding of the most radical commitment: to stay with your immediate embodied experience, as it is, and to behold its natural perfection. You are seeing that whatever arises within you is of the nature of luminous wisdom, an untamed sort of creativity, and is utterly valid. You are taking a sacred vow to no longer abandon your wild, precious heart, and to receive whatever appears there within an illuminated holding field of kindness. 

Though you know that there may always be longing, pain, heartbreak, and sadness, you also know the only choice is to allow love to burn. You will allow your heart to feel the preciousness of this world, and you will give your heart to others. For this is why you have come here. 

Looking up into the sunset on a timeless winter afternoon, you know that at any moment your heart may break, that you may fall in love in the most excruciating way, or that you will be met with deep waves of the most raw and tender sadness, loneliness, grief, and sorrow. You will no longer turn from your sensitivity, from the wild intelligence of your body, and from your most sacred vulnerability, for you are seeing that these are your golden blue pathways home. 

Photo credit: Marc Adamus, from the south ridge of Oregon's Three Fingered Jack peak -


  1. Dear Matt, I've only "just" ran into your blog...and am reading, reading, reading, feeling very touched by every word! I cry, feeling a yes within me, and so grateful for the grace that turned me around to face myself..the open space ánd all these "forgotten" parts of me. I am slowely discovering that pain is love, éven the daily physical pain.Seeing that within everything lies an intimacy that cannot be put into words.. Are there yet old aspects hiding in the dark? I don't know but can imagine there are.. Are there feelings I find tough to feel, to touch and hold...yes..for sure.. But there is a growing trust that they are nothing but this timeless endless light and love, that is revealing to be Me. With gratitude for your words and presence, Ann from the Netherlands

    1. Dear Ann, it's nice to connect with you and thank you for opening your warm heart here. I so appreciate your willingness to make this journey, to turn toward, and to stay with that precious Ann-ness that is revealing itself through form.

      I hope to be in Holland in 2014, teaching with my friend Jeff Foster - it would be nice to see you.

      Lots of love,

  2. Dear Matt, Thank you for replying! I have been at a satsang with Jeff before...but am looking foreward to meeting you too! Will it be announced through Jeff's mailinglist or your bloglist?
    You know, in one of your blogs you write that there are also hidden and suppressed feelings of joy and excitement, and my heart jumped by reading that! I always thought it would be the dark horror so to say, but it can even be feelings of strength, outpooring joy and light, and excitement that got stuffed away as "non desirable" and labelled as too confronting and too much...Okay...bring it on!! smile!
    Love, Ann

    1. Yes, Ann, in my experience, it is very common to turn from experiential intensity of all kinds - not just what is usually referred to as difficult, dark, or challenging. To fully embrace our own self-love, natural joy, openness, awe, innocence, etc. can trigger a lot within us, as well as those important persons in our early environments. Many learned to disassociate from these sorts of experiences, in order to maintain ties to caregivers, in order to receive the love, affection, and care that were required.

      Yes, Jeff and I will both announce our schedule when it is finalized.

      Take care, Ann. love, matt