Friday, January 11, 2013

An unwavering faith in love's perfection...


Sometimes we pretend there really is something more than love that matters… we look up into the winter sky and are just not sure… we know that somehow it must be possible for this life to give us more sweetness, more connection, more grace, more awakening, more intimacy, more joy, more lovers. We wonder if we've done something wrong: perhaps we've not prayed hard enough, in the right way; meditated enough; served enough; hurt enough; opened ourselves enough; forgave enough; let things go enough.

And then somehow we realize that this life, this body, this heart, this sensual reality that has been given as a gift from beyond - may not be what we think. It is shown so clearly that it is love that is orchestrating this reality according to an intelligence and creativity originating in the stars, pouring its grace-essence into and throughout our world in ways we'll never know or understand. In one moment of opening all the way, willing to risk it all, making the radical commitment to being unconditionally kind to our experience as it is, it is revealed that love is not something that comes to us, something we seek for or are given, but it is what we are, it is what this precious human body is constructed of; it is what made this DNA, and is the substance of each and every cell of this utterly raw and tender heart. 

And we know at the deepest somatic levels that in any moment that could ever be - whether joyful or sad or vulnerable or scared or confused or anxious - we could never find any separation between ourselves and love, between ourselves and Life. And we look back up into the same winter sky, though something seems a little different. We behold Venus, the moon, the other stars, the comets, this precious milky way that we call our home... with nothing left other than an unwavering faith in love's perfection.



 

4 comments:

  1. Thank you...once again what you write is encouraging me to open to this moment, however unpleasant it seems. Your blog has helped me to embrace so many painful moments,and to recognice the love that is always here... I am so grateful!

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    1. Dear Agnete, thank you for stopping by, for your kind words, and for always being willing to open your heart here... all the way. And thank you for sharing this precious, once-in-a-lifetime sacred bittersweet human journey with me...

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  2. Hi Matt I appreciate your gentle poetic tone and of course your insightful content. I too am a writer/editor and growing a counseling practice slowly...and very much grappling with all the issues you address as described in your bio...I carry a lot of hurt and woundedness and also a lot of love gathered through years of inquiry and spiritual practice and just my basic essence, and am finally facing the work of learning to love outwardly more fearlessly, without needing to be guarded or needing it to be requited (as David Whyte has written about). Just yesterday did have the revelation inwardly, of what it could feel like to love fully without worrying about being hurt or rejected or disappointed (which has happened many many times in recent years) because loving myself or experiencing the love within would carry me through. Within this is such freedom (if I can pull it off, if my old child hurt self can stand back), as then I really can love fearlessly and not need to take my 'interpretations' of rejection in as meaning I'm unloveable... This is my current quest, to really GET that I am never separated from love or life, no matter how alone I might think I am...

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    1. Hi Diana, thank you for reaching and sharing a bit of your journey with me. Yes, the love you are speaking about - the reality that you are describing - is one that, in my experience, really does demand everything from us... and requires an unbearable vulnerability and willingness for love to take us apart in the revealing of its mysteries. Sending lots of love, friend...

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