Wednesday, December 19, 2012

A natural human spirituality...

When we open all the way to love, a wild grace takes us over, showing us that our life is not and never was a problem after all, that needs to be solved, transcended, transformed, “accepted,” loved, witnessed, or otherwise subjected to the endless spin of spiritual process. Perhaps *this* state of consciousness - right here, right now – given as the most radical expression of luminous love – might be beheld as a sacred messenger from beyond, bearing endless gifts, the only expression of grace that could *ever* be. It is finally seen that there is no grace waiting around the corner, in the wake of some new magical spiritual process, 2012 dream fantasy, through some fabulous “awakening” “given” to us by some supernatural cosmic being, or when we otherwise become ultra special and finally have the right series of pre-programmed, constructed spiritual experiences and “states.” 

The only grace that could ever be is pouring through your heart right in this very instant – in the most unique and creative ways that are your gifts to this world – expressing itself in an uncontained way in and as each and every beat of your heart. Let us open to a natural human spirituality in which we honor the sacredness of this world by giving our lives to it *right now* - and setting aside forever the dream of a grace that comes in the future. We see once and for all that the future grace fantasy, the future “awakening” fable, the mythologies of personal “enlightenment,” the rambling stories of me and my specialness and me and my “shift” – that these just might be expressions of the movement of fear, not love.


  1. Being in the moment is never easy, especially when the moment is something you'd rather daydream away. It may be that the only virtue of being at all is that it is a spiritual experience.

    1. Hi Kathleen, what I have discovered - and also in speaking with many others about this - is that we can also open all the way to our inability to be in the moment. What is this experience like, to "not be in the moment?" It seems to me that Life or Love or whatever we call that flow of the actual through our lives does not need us to "be in the moment." This is yet again another spiritual concept that when inquired into a bit, seems to fall apart. It is my experience that so many of those interested in spirituality take concepts like this and use them to shame themselves, to beat themselves up, to be unkind to themselves (continuing the habits from within our families of origin) and to otherwise demonstrate yet again how they have failed, how they are ultimately no good, they can't even get this right, etc.

      Where in fact would one be other than in the present moment? Yes, thoughts about the past, feelings originating in previous times, dreams and images of the future, do arise - but they arise in the present, to use that term loosely. I have looked long and hard for a "present moment," but have never found one. The commitment, the way I see it, is not to some conceptual "present moment" that we will inevitably fail in "reaching" with our "awareness" practices and endless techniques - but rather it is to being unconditionally kind to whatever arises in our experience. This sounds rather easy, but appears to in fact demand everything. Can we allow in even the fact that it is difficult to "stay in the present moment?" Can we allow in even the movement of daydreaming? Is that welcome here - or must that somehow be moved away from with our spirituality that tells us otherwise? Can we allow in even the movement of resistance, the ways we push away from immediate, embodied experience? Can we deeply come to know this resistance, all the way through, exploring its textures and colors and sensations - without writing it off as yet another way that we've failed the spirituality project? For it seems to have something very important to share and to teach us.

      These seem to be very rich areas of inquiry... thank you for always being willing to share with me... love, matt