There are times when the ground has fallen away, and there
are no longer any reference points from which to make sense of what is
happening. The rug has been pulled from under the life you thought was here,
and were counting on to provide depth, solidity, and meaning. The narratives
are conflicting, the feelings are contradictory, and the path forward is hazy.
It’s as if you can’t access what was so clear from even a few days ago.
All of the work you’ve done – the surrendering, the
healing, the insights, the discoveries, the realizations… for some reason, it’s
no longer in reach. It’s as if you’re being asked to start over.
There is a sense that some sort of veil is parting, but
what is coming next has not yet been given. At times it feels so alive in the
unknown, but at other times it is disorienting, and you burn for resolution.
Rather than struggle against the uncertainty, give yourself
permission to enter inside it. There is a refuge here, though it is hidden and
may not be accessible via ordinary means. We don’t live in a world that honors
the wisdom in confusion and doubt, but you were never designed to live someone
else’s journey anyway.
Stay close to what is here now, even if what is here is
flat, numb, confused, and devoid of hope. For these are special allies of the
path, and operate outside conventional awareness. The unseen is always alive
around you, taking form as signs, symbols, and guidance for the journey ahead.
But the timeline is not of the known, and crafted of the stars.
You are not a project to be solved, but a mystery longing
to come into form. Your disappointment, your despair, and the ones representing
the death of old dreams – these uncommon helpers have arrived, along with the
more conventional aides of joy, clarity, contentment, and hope – to midwife
this mystery and to reveal that you are right on track.
Listen carefully to the invitation, as it arrives in a
thundering silence: Today may not be a day for answers, but to let your heart
break open to the vastness of the question.
Photo by Gregory Colbert
