Sunday, October 23, 2016

Only endless unfolding



It’s probably a good idea to count on those around you to relentlessly remind you of what you have disowned in yourself. For this is their secret gift to you, emerging out of the relational field itself as a benediction of wholeness.

It is tempting to interpret these erupting perceptions, emotions, and sensations as evidence that something has gone wrong. But if you will slow way, way down, and rest in the commitment to know what is most real and most alive, the veil will part and the buried wisdom will be revealed.

The center is found in this intention to know what is true more than anything. More than feeling good, more than appearing spiritual, more than being “awakened” and invulnerable, more than being happy all the time, and more than needing to keep up the appearance that you always have it all together.

It is an outrageous act of kindness to make a commitment that each time you find yourself irritated, annoyed, triggered, provoked, and hooked, that you will stay close. You will get really curious and not abandon yourself. You will not deny what is alive within you, nor will you urgently act to seek relief from it. You will set aside the temptation to start complaining, shaming, blaming, and raging at yourself or the other, for just a moment, and turn back into the unfolding somatic brilliance.

Because you care so much. About yourself, about the other, about reality, about this world.

And with a calm, regulated, attuned presence you will cut into billions of moments of fight-flight abandonment of the unbearably alive field of the here and now. Which is never, ever going to conform to our hopes, needs, fantasies, and preferences. For love is just too creative for all that. It is too unprecedented.

Yes, it can be so fucking annoying. But these are your true teachers, pure wisdom guides sent from beyond, to remind you of wholeness. To serve as your tour guide into the sacred world. And for this they are worthy of honor and gratitude. How irritating. How utterly precious. How very human.

There is never an end to the path of the heart. There is no final, safe landing place, no mythical fairytale of “awakening,” no completion, no resolution. No time when you are free from the beloved stepping in and pulling out the rug from underneath reality as you have come to know it.

Only endless unfolding. Your heart is endless. There is nothing any more sacred than that.


3 comments:

  1. So beautifull,Matt❤ These are words that I have spoke often to myself and others. I found myself feeling some very uncomfortable emotions this week. And I closed myself up like I was going to hibernate for the season. I feel and love so passionately so much of the time. And yet when these intuitive guides come in form of these experiences, it still has a tendency to knock me off balance. And what I can say is this...I'm feeling the beauty of the endless unfolding more than ever. It doesn't need to look or feel any certain way for spirit has so much more for me in this journey than what my imagination can dream. So incredibly topsy-turvy, heart exploding and heart wrenching. Gratefull beyond words to be on this journey with you❤ Thank you for being a beautiful bridge to my own heart, Matt����

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  2. Beautiful post! As always :) "...to know what is true more than anything.....more than appearing spiritual...more than being 'awakened.'" Yes! "No mythical fairytale of 'awakening' only endless unfolding..." Yes.Yes. Deeply resonate. Thank you.

    I too have been experiencing very strong, deep feelings and emotions in the last few weeks, wanting to withdraw and hibernate, to fold into Beingness and ride them out. But have also been practicing Yoga Nidra and Hakomi - giving me a felt sense awareness approach to these feelings and emotions - which are are helping me not to "abandon" these messengers. It is VERY difficult to stay present to them, but they will NOT be ignored... I know that is a good thing... _/\_ Chrsitine

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