Friday, October 31, 2014

Sanctuary for the unwanted within



You want to give joy, happiness, peace, and hope to others. It is so natural to want to uplift those around you. Perhaps the greatest gift you can give to another, however, is your willingness to provide sanctuary for the unwanted within you.

For when you are in open, warm contact with your own grief, sadness, loneliness, heartbreak, and confusion, a holding field emerges in the space between, granting cosmic permission for the other to embrace and practice kindness toward those unresolved qualities in themselves.

Inside the body of the beloved the dark and the light are being held in balance. Fall into his or her world for it is there where your hearts are no longer two.



Thursday, October 30, 2014

Daylong meeting and five-day retreat with Matt Licata and Jeff Foster



Dear friends, I wanted to let you know of two upcoming events that I'll be offering with my dear friend Jeff Foster. On March 28, we'll be having a daylong workshop at the glorious StarHouse in the mountains outside Boulder, CO. I'm also really happy to announce a five-day retreat with me and Jeff, from April 1-5 at Sunrise Ranch in Loveland, CO, where we'll be able to spend some intensive time deepening into presence and into the path of love together.

Our last events at StarHouse and in Boulder sold out quickly and there are only 150 spaces at StarHouse, 60 for the retreat in Loveland. We do expect both of these events to sell out, so if you're interested, please make sure to register sooner than later. Also, for the retreat, please note that you will book tuition through the EventBrite page listed below, however for accommodations and food, you will need to work directly with Sunrise Ranch.

For more information, details, and to register, please see:

3/28 – Being Present, The Ultimate Medicine – at StarHouse


Both Jeff and I are really looking forward to spending this precious time with our friends from around the world. Please stay tuned for future dates in the Bay Area, London, and Amsterdam in the spring/ summer of 2015. 


Photo of the glorious StarHouse in the mountains outside Boulder, Colorado, where we'll be gathering for a daylong event on March 28, 2015.  


For she loves you too much to do that...



A great meeting has been assembled and the abandoned pieces of your heart are the honored guests. The beloved is the host and is taking shape as the colors, the fragrances, and the world around you so that she may reveal the wisdom buried within your confusion.

She is a master of light and dark, and will continue to seed your world with her erupting creativity, taking you all the way inside her mandala of space and kindness. While it may feel at times that you are on the edge of a cliff, there is no choice but to release into her holding.

As you fall, it is very natural to become disoriented and wonder if you will be met. Though it may appear otherwise, the beloved is holding you at all times and receiving you into her vastness. You will always land inside her, but she will not protect you from the unfolding of your heart. For she loves you too much to do that.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

A most sacred astonishment



“The seeker should not stop until he finds. When he does find, he will be disturbed. After being disturbed, he will be astonished. Then he will reign over everything.” These words, said by Jesus, open the great Gospel of Thomas.

What if things here were not quite as they seem? That what you actually are is utterly sacred? That this world, your senses, your feelings, your emotions, your body – that these are revelations of unprecedented grace? Anointed portals of presence and love?

Inside the very center of your raging alive somatic experience—buried in the confusion, dancing in the core of your neurosis, and dripping out of your broken-open heart, is vast intelligence and luminous wisdom. Take just one moment and see. Nothing has gone wrong. Your present, embodied reality is pure creative flow.

Let this life touch you, break you open, and reveal the wholeness that you are. Dare to see that all of your experience is valid and a pathway of illumination. You will be astonished by what you find.


Photo by Robert Maschke



Q: Being the inquisitive person that I am, I wonder why Jesus said that first you would be 'disturbed'. That's very interesting.

A: ...in my experience, when we come to the direct, embodied realization that there is nothing in actuality which corresponds to our thoughts, beliefs, hopes, fears, and fantasies about love, about life, about the beloved, about this heart, we can be met with waves of exhilaration as well as those of disorientation. When the unknown dawns in our hearts, and we are no longer able to find a reference point in which to orient, when groundlessness and the radiant here and now become our only refuge, when love is pouring out in its sweet and fierce forms as this very life, this can be rather disturbing and disorienting from the perspective of egoic process and the entirety of what we have come to know up until that point.

On the one hand, we long to know love as the organizing principle of this reality – to heal, to awaken, to transform, to open, to be radically alive and embodied to what is truly happening here; however on the other there may always be an unconscious part of us that resists this aliveness. For to truly give ourselves to love, we know that *everything* will change; love will re-wire, re-orient, and burn up the known world. We will be face to face with every vulnerability, feeling, and sensation we have spent our entire lives avoiding and distracting ourselves from. And the unknown, and this burning heart, will be our only remaining refuge. On the one hand, this is all we've ever wanted and been longing for. On the other hand, from the perspective of the known world and egoic organization, this may be experienced as pure disturbance.