Friday, December 27, 2013

Your burning is grace

When will the burning end? You have surrendered, given everything to know love, but you are still being asked ... to ... burn ... more. How could you be shown so much, only to have it all taken away? All that is left now is a raging, unrequited longing, surging achiness in your body, and an unbearable rawness in your heart. You are right on track. 

And then in the next moment, when all hope has vanished into an unbearable hopelessness, a firestorm of grace arrives: you see so clearly that this longing, this burning, and this agonizing tenderness *is* the return message. Love has not abandoned you, but is pouring through the cracks in your armor; re-wiring your body, re-calibrating the cells of your heart, and laying new pathways of blessing through your nervous system. 

Slow way down, friend, lay your hands on your heart, and behold the secret transmission of this dimension: this burning is not a sign that grace has forsaken you, but *is* grace, and grace can never, ever be missing from your life. It is the very substance of your cells, of the strands of your DNA, and is forming the particles of love that have taken shape as your miracle senses. This burning is none other than wild love itself, come to annihilate every barrier that could ever be between you and your untamed dripping heart. 

It is so natural to conclude that grace will remove your burning—and that this is its function—but you are seeing now that this is not why it has come here. It has arrived to set on fire all that is false within you—all that is less than whole—and to show you so clearly that that which is real will never, ever burn away.  

It is so hard, friend, because love is a moment of the unknown, and will never conform to the way you thought it would be, to your previous reference points, hopes, and fears. It will annihilate the entire known world in order to polish your heart, and open your body to the undeniable truth of why you have come here.  Everything you thought you knew about love, about intimacy, about awakening, about healing, about relationships—it will all be incinerated by this burning. 

You are being asked to give everything now, to trust what you know in your heart, for what is coming next for you is beyond this world.