Saturday, July 21, 2012

The radical unresolvability of love and its movement

We want so badly to know what’s going on, to understand why our lives are the way they are, and most importantly when they will be different. We want to find that solid ground, certainty, and resolution to the struggles we’re experiencing in relationships, with our families, in our work lives, in our spirituality. We want to resolve once and for all the ways of love. But when the bottom falls out from underneath this life, we see so clearly that there was never any bottom there at all; when by some grace we’re able to allow ourselves to completely and totally fall apart, an intelligence is revealed; a creative life-giving support system of grace that is beyond this world. This once-in-a-lifetime situation here is groundless, uncertain, ahistorical, acausal, and completely, utterly, and totally out of control. 

Love is the substance of every appearance in this Universe, and will never ever be resolvable or organizable. It’s light is too bright. In one never-to-be-repeated moment, inside the center of your vulnerable breaking heart, that love which holds the stars, planets, sun, and moon in the sky is revealed, that same love that holds you at all times, offering support, guidance, and opportunities that are completely beyond your wildest imagination. And then somehow everything has shifted…  this life is no longer about getting to love, resolving our struggles, understanding our lives, or even accepting the way things are… rather, it is about an endless fascination as to how this love is going to express itself through this unique, sacred, and precious life.